After a while in the program, some of us start to think we've gotten better. We've learned everything the program had to teach us; we're tired of the rallies, and our promoter is stuck and keeps saying, "Steps - Steps - Steps!" We decide it's time to move on with our lives, downsize our concentrations, and try to make up for the years we've lost to use. In this way, however, we risk our recovery.
Those of us who have been in such a situation and ended up relapsing, usually seek to go to as many gatherings as we can. Some continue to gather every day for years. It can take us so long to digest that we will always be drug addicts. Regardless of whether we feel good or bad, every day we are junkies. At any moment we can get lost in self-delusion, denial, rationalization, excuses, insanity – all those characteristics of the classic mindset of a drug addict. If we want to continue to live and enjoy life without the use of drugs, we must remain active in the recovery process every day.
